It is day three of the South Beach Diet (Phase One) for R and me. R loves it. He has energy, his body feels good, and his heartburn is going away. Good for him. I hate it. I knew phase one would be hard for me because 1) I don't really like to eat eggs, which the SB people love, 2) I love fruit. Two weeks without fruit. I would probably prefer to be in a coma for two weeks. 3) My stomach is really quesy in the mornings (always has been since my little experience with anorexia in high school) and I've always settled it by eating carbs for breakfast. Toast. Oatmeal. Granola. I am having a really hard time eating breakfast on the SB. Today I had a 1/2 cup of cottage cheese and a V8, which did ok in my stomach. 4) We haven't been watching that much TV lately. Despite being home during the day, I have managed to avoid the Soap Opera Syndrome that normally accompanies me during long times alone during the day. I could easily waste 3 hours a day watching the ABC lineup. It is hard to ignore the TV, but I manage to stay busy with housework, applying for jobs, reading, homework, playing on the internets, etc. But when R and I watch tv in the evenings, I become a victim of sugar-promoting commercials that literally make my head hurt. There are so many commercials for food. And it is all highly processed, nutrient-free food. But the commercials are so alluring. These commercials are so hard for me to deal with that I am actually limiting my TV-watching time. (Which isn't that much anyway - we always watch the News Hour on PBS - which has no commercials and then maybe an hour of non-pbs programming. We don't have cable, so we don't really have alot to choose from.) Ehh. Anyway, back to my point. The TV is trying to make me fat. 5) I am hungry all the time. Basically, I don't like the SB-Phase 1-Friendly foods enough to eat them until I am full. It appears, in fact, that I am addicted to carbs and sugars.
But it is getting easier. So far today I have managed to eat all the food I am supposed to. I didn't dream about food last night, which I did the night before. (Although I have been having some bad nightmares since we started SB.) And I am not hungry right now, so that is good. I am hoping to start my exercise routine this weekend. Baby steps.
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